I think she did the same thing.
"I won't fall in love."
Abandonment has already been part of her life. She had a host family over the summer that she didn't connect well with. She told me "They a little bit no like me." She was scared we wouldn't either. I was scared to like her because I know how much it hurts to love and then have to let go.
But somewhere in the four weeks she was here it happened, mostly by accident. It was like she had always been here. It wasn't weird or difficult. It was like she belonged. The kids felt it. I felt it. My husband felt it. She must have felt it too because she shocked our socks off when she said she loved us and wanted to stay forever.
We started to try to think about it but were surprised to find our minds already made up.
Of course she's yours so go get her already.
We raised $1000 in one day so we could file our I600a. Her 16th birthday is soon and we have to file that form before then to assure she will be given a visa after the adoption is complete in Ukraine.
I don't know when we went from "only hosting" to adopting again. I just know that my girl is sad, lonely and asking for me to come get her "for forever" at least 10 times a day.
We plan to re-host her for summer since its for 12 weeks from June-August. She can be here while we finish the paperwork process, and hopefully we can get her soon after.
I never in a million years thought we'd be doing this again 🤣
Thanks for following along (again)!