I am a very organized person. I'm a rule follower. A list checker. An overachiever. I don't want to just do something, I want to do it well.
I have ridiculous attention to detail, almost to the point of making myself a little crazy. It must be spelled correctly. It has to match. It has to be geometrically symmetrical. It has to be clean. It has to be organized. Everything has a place and it needs to be in it.
There must be order. I even color coded the boys' shirt closet, but they didn't appreciate it and ruined the rainbow. Now they hang up their own shirts.
I don't give my word easily. If I will not or cannot do something, I will not ever say I will do it. If I say I will do something, I will. I will do it when I said that I would do it, and I will do it even if its extremely inconvenient to me. The reason I do this is that I feel its a lie to give your word casually and then never follow through and I absolutely abhor lies. (Just ask my kids)
All of these are good traits that have served me very well.
But... I don't play well with others who I feel aren't as motivated or as organized or as trustworthy as I am. I expect people to think the same way I do and put the same amount of effort into things that I do, and I can't wrap my mind around those who don't. And... ahem, well, I keep running into a massive amount of unmotivated, non-caring people. Like do you realize how many people just do.not.care. about anything other than clocking out?
I am not entirely certain what to do about this problem.
I think I will keep raising awareness.